unexpected.

ahh. thanksgiving break. you are beautiful!

this morning is complete at the well. apple chai! oh yes! its fantastic. glad i went out on a limb for sure. today is devoted to projects. papers. and case studies that need to be done. but they're not so bad when you get to sleep in, and enjoy it at a cute little small town coffee shop.

i wish i could see into people's brains what they're thinking. what they're feeling. i'm a peace girl and don't really like anything but peace. but i get that there's not always gonna be peace, especially when it comes to people, cause we're not exactly perfect! i've been disliked. hated even i assume. there are people that don't like me. crazy right?! JK! and from those people i expect the cold shoulder. its ok. its actually probably better that way. but i'm not sure i've ever really gotten or felt the cold shoulder from someone i wouldn't expect it from. until recently. i was shocked. stunned. appalled. just not exactly sure how i was suppose to feel. i prayed and prayed. God give me a gentle and quiet spirit. slow to anger. slow to speak. slow to anger. slow to anger. slow to anger.. ahh. I thought about my walk with the Lord. you see we have one of those relationships that you wouldn't exactly expect the cold shoulder from. we're in this together. some people even equate it to marriage. but how many times do i give that cold shoulder? acting oblivious to His very presence. Even though He's there I say nothing. and when He speaks to me my response is quick and quickly redirected to something else. now i know the feeling. I don't want Jesus to feel that way. EVER.

Lord keep my eyes set on you. guard my heart and mind with Your peace. May I chase after You more today than i did yesterday.